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Balancing

February 21, 2011

There is this constant nagging that bothers us all as adults – balance. We “grow up” and feel that constant pull of how to fit it all in, how to get a job, how to keep a job, how to take care of ourselves and balance relationships and friendships and dating. Then get married, have kids. More balancing and juggling.

I feel it on this blog constantly – I feel like I do too much picture dumping, too little writing. Then I do write and I feel like I write so much that it just becomes a word-dumping, too, and it’s too much, too personal, and I haven’t held the attention anyone reading long enough to stay until the end.

At the end of the day – that’s ok. It’s about intention. I’ll be honest – one of my largest intentions is to have a space to capture our life where we are at this moment and have something to look back on. To use this as a tool to connect with others who are doing the same with their lives – words and pictures intersecting at this exact moment in time. There’s no perfect in that and hardly a balance.

Trying to capture the rhythm of any “typical” day around here has so much that’s the same and so much that varies. So much to be thankful for and so much that still makes me want to rip my hair out or just lock myself behind a door somewhere and cry for a minute, then come out and take a deep breath and start over. So many days where I say words a bit too harsh and feel guilty, but so many more days when I hug and kiss my children to within an inch of smothering because I just can’t get enough.

And just when you think that you’ve just got it all balanced and you understand your normal and it feels like things are reaching a new rhythm – a new wrench gets thrown into it all just to keep things interesting. That’s life. Full and complicated and beautifully intricate.

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6 Comments leave one →
  1. Molly permalink
    February 21, 2011 8:46 am

    I couldn’t agree more… right down to the smothering hugs!

  2. February 21, 2011 5:13 pm

    You’ve done such a beautiful job capturing this thought with words. In my own life, I try so very hard now to be moment by moment, day by day because no other way is working for me. Blogging is such a great tool for reaching others who share a story so much like your own. I love reading your blog because I can relate so very well…too few words…too many words…can you ever really have enough pictures?! You’ve created this very real space and I love visiting it. :)

  3. February 22, 2011 1:15 am

    What a perfectly balanced post! I feel this way all the time. A pattern is forming, you get into the groove and then poof..plan B.
    and ps your pictures are amazing.

  4. February 22, 2011 9:30 am

    Wonderul post and fantastic blog.

    • Lillian permalink*
      February 22, 2011 1:51 pm

      Thanks so much for stopping by Beln! Lillian

  5. February 22, 2011 10:41 am

    Found you over on Small Notebook! The title of your post caught my eye!
    Balance is an elusive thing. I think we are constantly striving for it, yet hardly ever feel that we have achieved it.
    I write on my blog about taking care of ourselves, mentally, spiritually and emotionally, all the while trying to balance life’s responsibilities.
    Great post here. You did an awesome job of putting into words what so many feel daily.
    Bernice
    8 week Journey to Balance

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