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February 23, 2010

Every time I start to get into a rut, something comes along to give me some perspective.

I love the rhythm of our normal day-to-day life. It’s become much more calm and predictable since Nick was born. We stay home so much more – he’s just happier that way and Amelia and I have gotten used to it. Before he was born, she and I went on some form of adventure almost every day. She was an amazing baby like that – I could take her anywhere, anytime and she’d happily adapt. Then, along came Nick and when we started venturing out, the stimulation was just so much for him. It was so much better to stay home and make sure everyone got naps when they needed them and that we weren’t throwing everyone’s schedules off. I never thought I’d say it, but we’re SO a family that sticks to nap schedules and normal routines. If nothing else, but for my own personal sanity.

So, we have our normal now. Almost a year later, we’re settling in. But, you know, some days are just a lot? They’re exhausting – the trying to keep up with clutter, picking up toys, cooking meals only to clean up and feel like it’s time to start the next meal and it all makes me want to take a nap.

Then, I hear about Layla Grace. And I stop. Tears flow and I say some extra prayers. I wish that I could take away that pain from every mother who has ever had to watch a child suffer and I marvel at the Grace and the Faith with which she expresses her thoughts. And I hug my kids about a hundred extra times. And cry some more tears. And say another prayer. And thank God for the precious days that I have with my kids and the messes they make and the tears they cry and the lack of quiet in our house. And my daughter asks me to stop typing and play trains with her. So I’m going to stop. And hit publish and get down on the floor with my sweet girl. And hope that you all head over to read Layla Grace’s story and send some prayers to both her and her family as they search for peace amongst so much heartache.

2 Comments leave one →
  1. February 23, 2010 11:44 am

    Good morning, Lillian!

    I found you through Seleta’s blog, and what caught my eye and made me want to check out yours was your word of the day, as well as Layla Grace’s mention. We’ve been praying very hard as well for that sweet little girl. My heart about broke when we learned her stem cell transplant didn’t work. Our hearts and thoughts are still with her and her family during these days.

    I completely relate to schedules (life savers) since our wee one was born 20 months ago. My daughter (almost 10) and I always ventured out and did as we pleased. That’s changed since our little guy blessed our lives, but I wouldn’t change it. I’m learning new things to appreciate every day, as well as the miracle of changes.

    Take care and have a wonderful Tuesday.



  2. Jen permalink
    February 25, 2010 4:26 pm

    I couldn’t agree more…the little things just don’t even bother me since I heard about Layla…so sad.

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