In Black and White
I’ve been trying, trying, trying with film. It’s slow going,very slow going, but I cannot even begin to describe what a fun feeling it is again to go to pickup that roll after it’s been developed. I don’t get prints, just get it developed and scanned, so I wait to get to the car to rip open the envelope to see the tiny index print or wait excitedly to get home to pop in the CD to see the images.
I’ve been disappointed. I’ve been elated. But it just feels so good to watch each roll as I’m learning more and more about the exposures, about how to use this old camera and a light meter. About how to trust the light meter in the camera and where it’s off just a bit. About different films and the way I want to create images and the way I really can create images to be the way I want. That feels good.
I’ve still been editing them a bit, but it’s getting to be less and less. The editing involves usually adding a bit in the curves of lightroom to make the images how I want them to look – adding a bit of contrast, pulling down the lights and increasing highlights the tiniest bit.
But this roll? This most recent roll? I didn’t even touch. I could have added a bit in some of the shadows – I overexposed a touch too much like I would have with color film and the black and white didn’t need it. I could have cropped a bit here and there, but I just didn’t want to. It’s all good enough and the constant striving for absolute perfection – I’ll leave that to the professionals and take this extra time with my family for now. There’s a sweetness that comes across that I love, so I left them alone. Plus, my laptop is dyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyying and the less I need to edit, the better. It’s become a painstakingly slow process at this point.
I’m going to stop talking about things that most of you probably don’t care about. All of the film/exposure/editing aside – this journey into film is doing something serious for me. I’m reaching for this old camera more than my digital. I’m taking the time and stopping to get the images I really want. I’m doing the thing I most wanted – spending less time behind a computer screen with my images. I’m seeing things in life that I never would have stopped to see in the past and it’s so very good for me.
Now, if you’ll excuse me – it’s date night and I need to get ready! We’re dropping the kids off with my parents for a sleepover and headed to dinner with some of my very favorite people in the whole world. I got a new roll of film today to test out tonight in the dark lighting of a restaurant and I can’t wait.