Giving Us All a Break
I’m tired today. You won’t hear me say that often. Not that I’m not tired, it just seems like one of those things that’s so assumed with where I am in life that it just seems like such a pointless thing to waste time time expressing.
But today, I’m tired. I’ve been doing a terrible job lately at making sure I get to bed on time and instead have gotten into the vicious cycle of staying up too late and drinking caffeine all day to compensate and we all know how well that doesn’t work. I had a big list of things I wanted to accomplish today. It’s the first of three days off in a row, so I wanted to stay home all day and get lots done – way too much laundry, organize toys that are just heaped in abandoned piles, make cookies, wash floors and bathroom, do art projects and make a yummy dinner.
The day started with three outfits changes before 8:30am for the two year old – one after breakfast’s food mess and two after-potty accidents plus a duvet cover and towels that needed to be washed after the got, um, soiled, when said two year old took off running while we were cleaning up an accident and decided to rub his not-yet-wiped bum on everything. Oy.
Then I displaced my annoyance and got completely annoyed at the world. I’m kind of mature like that sometimes. I got annoyed at all of the messes everywhere. I got annoyed at my husband and came *thisclose* to sending him a sarcastic email thanking him for not cleaning up our bedroom last night like he said he would and for leaving dinner crumbs on the table. I got annoyed at the 4 year old for being on her third outfit for the day and seeing the first two scattered in bits and pieces.
Then I got a grip and took a deep breath. Why do we put so much on our plates, then get overwhelmed and annoyed when we never accomplish it all? I didn’t send an email to my husband, I knew he was exhausted yesterday because of allergies and his new job and that he probably crashed and went to sleep when he put the kids to bed. I know that he’s having a rough time and that me whining about a room not being picked up is just going to make him feel worse. I know that my daughter is just getting excited about her different outfits and, quite honestly, it’s hard to get upset when her mess is just as much amongst my own messes scattered around my room.
So I gave us all a break and didn’t say anything and it felt really good. I knelt down and gave my kids a hug and gathered a load of laundry. Decided to shorten my list and just attempt to finish a lot of laundry today and make a yummy dinner for us to all sit and enjoy together. Turned on Sesame Street for the kids to buy myself 15 minutes to sit down and write a bit on here because I knew it would help me to re-center. Poured myself a glass of Diet Pepsi and got to it.
I do feel better. I have laundry waiting to be folded and it’s going to get put away immediately. We’re going to have an early lunch and I’m going to nap with the kids. Instead of Shepherd’s Pie for dinner, it’s going to be easy burgers and roasted potatoes and a quick salad. The art project is going to be coloring. I am going to send my husband an email, but it’s going to be a funny e-card because I know he could use a laugh today.
Want to join me? Want to give yourself and someone else a break today?