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Hibachi and Some Other Bits on One Roll of Film

January 5, 2012

I have a hard time balancing words and pictures. I just talked about it a month ago. It feels like I always have an eternal backup of photos to share and don’t have ton to say in writing, or I have a million words swirling in my head but haven’t picked up a camera. Looking back through a year worth of photos struck a chord for me recently. Someone left a comment asking how I chose the photos I chose and the truth is that I chose them for myself. I just picked the photos I liked the most, that stuck out to me as things I remembered through the year or things I loved.  Not too long after choosing them I read this from Kyrie at are so happy:

When I was looking back over my photos over the past year, I realized how many of them were taken purely to be something “bloggable”, and how those photos just don’t mean anything to me now.

It was literally like a punch to the gut, or the kind of hard kick I really, really needed to hear. I want to pick up my camera more, and I have been, but I don’t want to do it for the sake of just taking contrived blog photos. There is a place for that in the specific projects that I want to share, but they’re so few and far between and most of the time they’re Pinterest projects anyway and I just link to the original. I’m not saying that I’m fake.  I think(hope) anyone who reads this blog realizes that.

There are so many pictures that I just wind up not sharing because I can’t find the right words to use to share them because I take them as our life happens, then it’s a week or two later and I realize that I haven’t shared and it feels like it’s too late. I’d love to share more of those in bits and pieces. With a thought or two or 10 for the day, but without a common thread tying them all together. I always feel like I’m missing a cohesive common jumping off point to tie it all together. But I think I’m ok with that, because it’s not me. Me is just starting a conversation mid-sentence and always having to backup to explain what the heck I’m talking about. Stream of consciousness is my constant. And, really, this blog is just an account of our life. A recall of a series of event with tiny bits and pieces chosen to share and a million more linking them all together.

I think I’m saying that I want to share more. I’m just trying to figure out how. So thank you for all of the comments and emails and  input.  I tell myself that I want to reply to every comment, but it doesn’t always happen. But I read them. And love them. And appreciate them more than I can say.  So thanks for hanging out while I’ve been sifting through what works and what doesn’t around here. I’m doing it amongst the normal daily stuff, working part-time and actually (saying this out loud feels weird) getting everything sorted out to open up shop on a photography business in the near future. Nothing major, a very limited number of sessions and work while I build, but still – I’m doing it. Fo’ realz. Thanks for hanging out and coming back to this space sometimes and actually caring a bit about what I have to say and share.  I like you guys a whole lot:)

4 Comments leave one →
  1. January 5, 2012 12:36 pm

    YAY!!! For you, for the people who you’ll take photos of, for creativity, for it all… YAY! I’m excited for you. Congrats on saying it out loud and doing it! Love your photos and posts – in any which way you choose to create them.

  2. January 5, 2012 12:41 pm

    The reason I keep coming back here, I relate. Over and over again I feel like you explain how I am feeling. I have noticed that I don’t post as often as I would like but I feel like I need a picture to post…to me it just feels right. But that means I don’t post very often even though my camera if full of images because I have not taken the time to sit down and share them. Then it is weeks later and the timing feels off. Ah…perhaps just because the moment has passed for us in our personal life doesn’t mean it can’t be the right moment for someone to read it when we DO post it. =)

  3. January 5, 2012 3:52 pm

    In the last handful of months I’ve come across some photographers that have really helped me find my direction and given me the courage to come in to my own as a photographer. I hear you about it being scary to declare…
    If we lived closer I’d be honored to have you photograph my family – especially on film. You are very very talented.

  4. January 6, 2012 8:58 am

    so SO excited for you!! i just “liked” your photography page, and it made me smile so big. 🙂 xo

    and these are so amazing. i need to get my film developed this weekend!

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