Sometimes trying to catch up just doesn’t work. You just need to jump in and be present and move forward from where you stand and that’s what I’ve needed lately. In the past month(ish) we’ve had my Husband’s birthday, my Father-in-Law’s birthday, Mother’s Day, my Mom’s birthday, our Anniversary, Memorial Day, Mia’s birthday, my Dad’s birthday and Father’s Day is up next. Two trips to New York. Favorite friends here for the weekend and meeting new babies. The end of school. Sprinkle in a good dose of photo sessions (yay!) and our daily grind. Wash, rinse, repeat. The weekends have been a blur. I cannot keep up.
Mia’s birthday celebrations spanned two weekends and it was completely ridiculous, but she had fun. I promised her months ago that she could have a Big-Kid-Friends-Only-No-Parents birthday party, so when my Mother-In-Law asked if we wanted to go to New York for the day for her birthday (and the answer was an obvious yes!) I couldn’t cancel her party just because there was too much going on. We made the party the following weekend, shook our heads at doing so much and decided to make the party just a few friends and simple. “Camping” in the backyard became sheets pinned in branches for a tent, a cake decorated by me and worthy of Cake Wrecks (but she loved it and that’s the part I love), balloons, fruit and pretzels, juice, party hats and the birthday horns she really wanted.
Now, she is five. And she is driving me crazy. So full of sweetness and so loving, also so full of angst alldayeveryday and isn’t it supposed to be at least another 5 years until that starts??? I am impatient too often and it’s unfair. She is nervous and anxious and cautious with everything, yet somehow confident all at the same time. She is bright and diligent in all that she learns. She is imaginative. She is bossy. She has the sweetest sweet tooth of anyone I know. She is full of wonder and so graceful. She is so quick to be hurt but so much more quick to forgive.
These children of mine, they teach me so much about the complexities of being human and how deep the threads of love run and I am so eternally grateful for that. Five years old! Every single birthday blows my mind!