The weekend felt like the literal calm before the storm (Sandy.) It was my birthday, but somehow 31 just feels so uneventful (and I kind of like it that way, without any fuss.) All weekend I just kept thinking of how gorgeous the leaves have been this fall. They’ve been vibrant and full and held on for so long and I know it’s silly, but I just keep feeling melancholy that this storm is going to knock down all of the rest of those beautiful leaves before we have our last chance to squeak out some extra weeks of enjoying the colors of fall.
I know there are more important issues when it comes to the storm, but it’s what I keep going back to, so I started filling up the time with Christmas planning to make it all feel a little more jolly and fun. I know there are so many people (my husband) who groan at the thought of all of the Christmas that’s already permeating everything, but this is my very favorite part of the holidays – the excitement and buildup and the freshness of it all. When everyone is still excited and not yet stressed and worried about money and being busy and family dynamics. When the inevitable letdown that is the actual day of a holiday isn’t quite near and it all just feels exciting and the kids still feel like it’s light-years away. So I’m planning and getting things done now. It feels good and not stressful or obligatory like it would in December and it means that time will be left in December for other things – I like that.